I feel like I'm in a deep hole that I can't get out of. I feel like my chest is caving in. I feel like I can't breathe. I still owe my school $1,600.00 with no refund check. I only get one paycheck this week, versus two. Not to mention, this ed thing. Granted, it gives me a sense of control, something that I have a handle on, but in reality, I'm really fucked up. And who is there to talk to? Damnit, I feel so alone. Fuck. I can't breathe and my teeny tiny heart is jumping out of my chest. I want to cry, I want to scream, but I'm afraid people will hear me. Will they hear me? I don't want anyone's help, I'm in the mess I am because I put myself there. Everything is heavy. Everything is so god damn heavy. Just make it go away.

Please. I'm begging you.