To add to my weight and size anxiety, it just occurred to me that H may be trying to discretely tell me that I'm a fatass. He does MMA classes, he's gotten into crazy amazing shape. Ever since, he's been trying to convince me to to take these jui-jitsu classes because "it's good for you. It'd be really good for you". I've expressed to him on several different occasions that I have no interest in wrestling around on the ground, unable to breathe, in a desperate attempt to exercise. That's what I have my gym membership for. "But you'll learn self-defense," he argues. Ugh. He gave up on it for a bit. But tonight, after getting back from the gym, he informs me that the owner is starting a women's kickboxing class, "if I'm interested". Looks like my suspicions were correct: my boyfriend thinks I'm a complete cow. Six am runs should fix that, right?
Sweetie--as hard as it is and as much as we want to predict what others are thinking--the truth is we can't read peoples minds. or at least i can't and i don't know anyone who can.
ReplyDeletehe maybe just wants someone to work out with. wants someones to talk to, wants you to love what he is so passionate about as well. look at some other ideas and outlooks to this situation.
i mean take for example this...my mom was so annoyed that i ate 3 brownies and only left one for her in the morning...long story short...of course right away i was like thats it....moms calling me a fatass....she was mad i ate them, i was mad i ate them, i was feeling terribly gulity but could it just be that my mom was looking forward to having a brownie and she wanted them. they were hers. if she knew i wanted one she wouldnt of cared but she wanted more than one for herself.
I don't think your boyfriend thinks you are a cow. You have no idea that he thinks that. You have no proof or data.
Keep kicking your thoughts and questioning them darling.